Sunday, July 11, 2010

शायद...

जो चाहो वो मिल ही जाये ये ज़रूरी तो नहीं,
हर रात के बाद सुबह फिर आये ये ज़रूरी तो नहीं|

जो दिखता है वो मुकदर है या कि नहीं,
बूंद होंठो पे गिर के प्यास भी बुझा पाए ये ज़रूरी तो नहीं|

चाँद तारे रोज़ निकलते और दिखते भी हैं,
यूँ ही कभी कोई मिले और अपना बन पाए ज़रूरी तो नहीं|

शमा के इलावा भी सुलगते हैं ग़म ज़माने में,
हर सुलगना रौशनी कर जाये ये ज़रूरी तो नहीं|

- मनु

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Please?

I want to be your strength

I want to be the one you can turn to at each bend

I want to be the selfless love you would cherish

I want these feelings to never perish


Can you hold me forever and never let me go

I want to be the one to whom you would never say no

I want to be the one of your guardian angels

I want to have this love without any labels


I want to be with you when you want to be alone

I want to be your haven, your home

I want to understand your deepest fears

I want to be able to wipe off all your tears


I want this all for me

But this can happen if your let us be

Is this asking for too much?

Or you can make this come true as such!


Please? :(

Monday, June 14, 2010

Haven't I...!


Have you held the one you love?

With your whole world in your both hands

What feeling it is, what completeness it creates

Doesn’t matter if the universe may end then



Have you ever been touched?

Sitting somewhere far, alone

With the serenity of a mutual thought

And that want of being together


Have you felt that everything is worthless?

That each day, every moment should fast-forward

To the time when you would be together

Body and soul forever tied together


I have lived through it all

When I cried out tears of blood

And I wasn’t even aware of the reason

To stare into the mirror and curse!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Sands in hands...

There is a test for everything. At each step we get tested. Love, relationships, desires, plans, success, carrier…everything gets tested. And these tests come in the form of hardships in life.

It is not easy to face these hardships or the testing times. Often we give away or give up and might do things that we would regret later when the times cool down. Or we sometimes may have the grace to learn and grow and come out of them with flying colors.

There are numerous possibilities. And things may not make sense at that time. But remember that state is temporary. We need to take a break and stop trying to make sense of that for the moment. Because the time will come itself, and it will come to you itself. The Sun will shine and you will look back and then tiniest of the thing will fall into its place. You’ll realize you were being such a fool in trying to do something that was totally beyond your control.

For now, sit back, don’t run after it. Have faith and rest assured- your time will come. Pray- ask for the strength to be able to avoid doing things that you might repent on later. Don’t judge- anyone, anything.

One can sit in front of the fire and warm their body but what about the coldness inside them! It can only go with the warmth of love. And love will and can only come when you give it. Initially, you may feel that it is going down the drain. But it is no waste. No love is ever a waste, even if not reciprocated. Each and every right thought or action that is filled with love has a reward. It is just a matter of time.

My final day comes. They are here to take me away forever. I can see them. And now I am thinking about things that I should have done but didn’t do.

I did not take him in my arms when he was vomiting blood right in front of my eyes because just moments ago we had fought.

I did not apologize to her when she cooked for me and I left the served plate for the insects because she asked me a question that hurt my ego.

I did not thank them enough, who saved my life; thinking that it was their duty.

I did not appreciate who she was because I was jealous of her being so perfect.

I did not appreciate the gifts that I received, even when they came to me without being asked for.

And now when I want to do it all… it’s over… time’s up.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Love Always...

Like a cool summer shower,

Or that hill top, bright yellow flower,

You came into my life,

Like a bee in its hive.


Your dimpled smile is a lure,

And this wonderful heart so pure,

The horrible PJs that get my face straight,

And that habit of always arriving late.


The made up voice in which you sometimes sing,

The “lady” or “hellos” that you ping,

Always ordering a nine inch Subs,

The transition from pups to cubs.


The constant buzzing of office mails on your phone,

The French goatie that you have grown,

The way you convince me, the way you speak,

Mostly a geek but sometimes a freak!


The way you love, care and pamper,

And when you invade the kitchen and tamper,

You are the King I discovered as a kid,

The snoozing on phone, net and car that you did.


This is to let you know…


I love you every bit and you I adore,

And the least I promise you is my heart and my soul,

Smile, frown, think, tease or just let things be,

Or just do nothing at all…just be with me!


Love Always!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Someone Told Me – You Envy In Love


I envy this wind

That blows through your hair

I envy this sun

That sees you bare

I envy this ground

That lies beneath your feet

I envy every person

That you pass by and meet

I envy the music

That you hear

I envy the clothes that you wear

I envy anything

That you touch

I envy everything

That is close to you, so much

I envy the glass

That you drink in

In envy the sheets

That you sleep in

I envy anything

That you hold

I envy every word that you told

I envy all

That belongs to you

And to tell you…

The people I envy for

Are very very few!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Love Vs Lust



Finally a post on a topic that I have been contemplating on, since about a couple of months now…or may be more! And probably still would continue with that for life. As nothing convincible has come in so far and I see no hope for the future as well. The amount of study, research and talks with people around me; that has gone into this, it is way beyond any of my posts all summed up.

Love is a soul need.

On a broader level- affinity for physical and/ or mental closeness exists in both. Where they primarily differ is the readiness or degree of commitment that they withhold. By commitment one doesn’t necessarily mean putting a ring on a finger. The term is more to do with the level of assurance.

Lust is dreadfully usage based - what you lust for. Whereas love is very subject or person based- who/ what you love. Lust is ‘love for usage’. Let’s say love for money, sex, power, success, etc, is all lust because no further commitment is required and the subject or the person from whom it is derived may change.

Whereas, it’s ironic to say that love exists more in shades of grey than pure black or white. Ironic yet true! You hardly realize when you are in it. You can always bank upon that one person or thing. The name u cry out when you are in pain – because the mere sound of that name gives you ample peace and solace. Love has an element of giving into it more oriented towards the loved ones likes and dislike. While lust is a desire to obtain something. An extreme and illogical desire. We may try to rationalize it but who are we really fooling!

Today, what we see love is not what it is, but in what form it is being marketed to us. You watch a romantic movie, you learn- oh! This is the way one needs to behave, this is what one needs to say or do. You hear a love song and you say-oh! This is the way I am supposed to behave. Or this is the way your partner should behave, or whoever, your relations, your friend etc. Or you read a book and that narrates a scene and it leaves an impact on your mind. An impact that you start picturing your D day to be matching to what you read

It is an attempt to define both terms in order to understand how they are different. Trying to identify that thin line between the two. More often than not we are in a ‘thing’ that we think is love because when we are in there, we feel it that way or maybe we like to believe that it is. But once it gets over and done with and we look back, there are some things that raise some questions; the answers to which are not too pleasant.

Is it...just crying for someone when they are away?

Is it...thinking about them all the time...relating each instance to them?

No matter what you do…you can’t seem to stop imagining..What would they do at this time?

Yes

What’s love?

A kind of attraction for each other and a feeling of caring for the person?

You care.

It’s the most divine of all feelings.

You care for someone other than you- a sort after trait in humans.

But then it is filled with all kinds of other human feelings; likes of possessiveness, attachment and what not- it sometimes gets painful.

But that doesn’t mean that love is to be blamed! It’s just pure. It’s we who could not make up to it.

Some interesting quotes that somehow impress me and make me think and believe in it!

Don’t rush in luv for it never runs out. Let luv be the one to knock at your door, so by the time you start to fall, you know that your feeling is for sure.

When you love someone, it's nothing. When someone loves you, it's something. When you luv someone & they luv you back, it's everything.

Love isn't a decision, it's a feeling. If we could decide who to love, then, life would be much simpler, but then less magical.

Never waste an opportunity 2 say 'I love U' to someone u really like, coz it is not everyday u'll meet the person who has the magic to let u fall in love.

'I Trust You' is a better compliment than 'I Love You' because you may not always trust the person you love but you can always love the person you trust.

To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

Love is just a word until you find someone to give it a definition.

With a zillion love songs (from ‘what’s Love got to do with it’ to ‘Nothing’s gonna change my love for you’), movies (from ‘Love aajkal’ to ‘The Ugly Truth’), books, researches, experiences, instances, heartbreaks, greeting cards, pictures and what nots, I still stand where I started from. All I could maximum infer is that- ‘L’ove and ‘L’ust both have a same beginning but it’s the ending that marks a difference (yeah- literal and figurative).