There is a test for everything. At each step we get tested. Love, relationships, desires, plans, success, carrier…everything gets tested. And these tests come in the form of hardships in life.
It is not easy to face these hardships or the testing times. Often we give away or give up and might do things that we would regret later when the times cool down. Or we sometimes may have the grace to learn and grow and come out of them with flying colors.
There are numerous possibilities. And things may not make sense at that time. But remember that state is temporary. We need to take a break and stop trying to make sense of that for the moment. Because the time will come itself, and it will come to you itself. The Sun will shine and you will look back and then tiniest of the thing will fall into its place. You’ll realize you were being such a fool in trying to do something that was totally beyond your control.
For now, sit back, don’t run after it. Have faith and rest assured- your time will come. Pray- ask for the strength to be able to avoid doing things that you might repent on later. Don’t judge- anyone, anything.
One can sit in front of the fire and warm their body but what about the coldness inside them! It can only go with the warmth of love. And love will and can only come when you give it. Initially, you may feel that it is going down the drain. But it is no waste. No love is ever a waste, even if not reciprocated. Each and every right thought or action that is filled with love has a reward. It is just a matter of time.
My final day comes. They are here to take me away forever. I can see them. And now I am thinking about things that I should have done but didn’t do.
I did not take him in my arms when he was vomiting blood right in front of my eyes because just moments ago we had fought.
I did not apologize to her when she cooked for me and I left the served plate for the insects because she asked me a question that hurt my ego.
I did not thank them enough, who saved my life; thinking that it was their duty.
I did not appreciate who she was because I was jealous of her being so perfect.
I did not appreciate the gifts that I received, even when they came to me without being asked for.
And now when I want to do it all… it’s over… time’s up.
